there are things i cant explain - how hypnosis seems to work.
but then every time someone wants to make a systematic theology it's evil and wrong.
people "scripting" are sad
religious people are sad
there is always some sadomasochistic domination thing going on that makes it impossible to promote any sort of spiritual system.
the manifestation content machine has people living their dream lives by selling others on the idea of living their dream lives. but it is true that some of these coaches can take a high earning client and help them boost their earnings significantly. they aren't all pure cult leader scam artists.
priests are ripping off widows for fancy funerals. but some priests are really dedicated and helping people. I've been helped by a church community before and also gotten really bad guidance.
where do people get real help when they're the ones suffering in this sadomasochistic shit? some people had very abusive parents, some people are a little neurodivergent or whatever combination of personality traits that make them targets in society, but then every system that is supposed to support them is also part of society so they're just fucked. whether it's psychology, religion, new age stuff. even just learning it on their own, it can be twisted by their conditioned programs already running in their head.
i think a lot of people get into religion not for the mystical aspect but rather they want to find the best model for society to manage its psychological issues. and the people with actual mystical proclivities are outliers who don't fit in the system and can just be collateral damage (unless they submit to some conditions, like the restrictions of being cloistered in a monastery or being a hermit).
there is no comfy oracle schizo anymore... or is there? are these famous grifters actually how the comfy oracle schizos of ancient times always were? and then there were the loser schizos who are homeless and tweaking out or just suppressing themselves because of whatever lack of charisma. so there is even a schizo hierarchy 😔
"they dont care if you dont get results, as long as you dont say LOA (law of attraction) isnt real." why does it matter so much to them?
the point is to just be optimistic, but not too optimistic, just be normal.
and i think the thing people need isn't a teacher but just a friend.
honestly, when i was at my worst i would have even paid for someone to just be nice to me if i would know for sure that they would be nice to me. but i knew it wouldn't work and i’d even lose money while being treated like shit or just lukewarmly and feeling lonely again.
i guess i am just trying to sell true unconditional love?
i’m actually being very sincere. people need love and attention and it's very sad because it can be so hard to come by. (i started to cry for real here because i’m such a corny bitch lmao)
and i don't just mean saying kind words, i mean this deep empathy, when you have a sympathetic connection, you even physically feel what the other person feels, and you see visions, and there is some exorcism, exchange of energy. there must be some scientific explanation for it!!! i knew my friend's mom was cheated on when she was pregnant. i saw visions of war and abuse and things. there are people more tapped in than i am.
i know someone who saw a murder the exact way it happened, she saw a shooting before it happened too. she saw bushes all cut up a day before the landscapers did it.
the mystical stuff, the fasting, the visions, the devils, the magical thinking and hope, the exorcisms and healings, all of this stuff is real to some extent but it's always corrupted and distorted to be commodified---and not even to be commodified but some sadists even want to psychically hurt people even at their own expense, to no gain of their own, except the sadistic satisfaction.
i know that words alone can heal. so i want to make free content and then i want to do sessions for people who want more potent stuff and i have to do that at a cost because it does physically and mentally take a toll on me plus i have to make money to live and if i'm spending my time with this i am not training for another career so it's just fair.
(since writing this part i have made some realizations about the payment of karmic debt which is beneficial to the client himself when he pays the spiritual practitioner)
i recall the argentinian priest's story:
I was listening to a sermon by an Argentinian priest. He said that the healing of the deaf and mute man from the Decapolis was the easiest miracle that Jesus did: open his ears and untie his tongue. Remember, we're talking about He who resuscitated a man who was dead, at the drop of a hat.
And yet what seems to be the easiest miracle is also the most complex ritual. He spat in his fingers and put it in his ears and untied his tongue and then said a word in a foreign language, epheta, probably in Chaldean which means "be opened".
Basically what this means is that Faith is not our first language, our first language is reason. Our natural inclination is not towards God, it's towards evil. So of course it doesn't feel right, it is not right for us, it is essentially forcing ourselves to speak a foreign language
It was easier for Christ to bring someone back to life than it was to give Faith to a man — to open the ears and untie the tongue of a man.
